Jakarta, August 20, 2010
Beautiful Morning, little rain outside, smell so good, and wind is blowing so slowly, feel cold but so coool :D fresh air...Oh, Thanks to Allah for this beauty morning :) hmmm, Pee Loon song still on playing when i wrote this posting ... suddenly remember with someone being :) someone who always i told in this blog since at first time i made this blog. Almost 2 years going on... sweet bitter things come and gone, not only with him but with many ones else too :)
Someone that i love since too ago even till now :) when nothing remain between me and him but i cant deny that i still love him. Maybe thats true, if girls will stop their love to someone that gone when they get new love again. Its similar with my true story. Too ago I kept Michael name with his love arround in my life, manythings happend, manyones come and gone, but Michael feel still so close with me eventhough i cant see him arround me till that someone come and touch my heart deeply :) " strange love " i can called my second love like that. I have never see him, touch him, talk with him face to face. But that love really stay in my heart. slowly-slowly, filled the blank place of my heart, make new palace with all of his amazing things :)
Im falling in love with him too ago. One of a friend told me , dont ever judge someone life from their cyber life, Altaf (one of my friend) ever told me too, Man only have good things, but another ones that judge us about our bad things...
Maybe like that too how i love him. Many ones ask me how can i love him this much ? hehehe, even i dont know the answer. I just love him. He has many amazing things that maybe he have never knew too. I learnt manythings from him. His hard life, His efforts how to survive, His grateful for everything he has, His Love for His Mom. I just love it. :) Maybe its listened too simply but life never be simple in his life. wont ever be ...but he always try to be happy with all the things he has. And he can do it..
He teach me something without being like as a teacher. He told me that i did a mistake, i did something wrong with some ways that i have never felt he is like as a perfect someone. He explain something or give me an example of another matter or problem withot being like as a lecturer. Sometimes i got him as a lover, a friend, a singer too :D or sometimes he is perfect as an actor. a good enemy for fighting. Hard as challenger in debate :D a good listener, a wise advisor, also excellent teller :D
From him i knew that love is so simple. he never promisse anything for our future love. Because love no need a promisse. Being together or not with him, thats not a matter for me, because i love him for him self not for his being near or far from me.
i have never think about his bad side that everyones told, not because of am blind with my love toward him but His Amazing things more than enough to impress me than those bad things. After all, am also not a perfect someone that want a perfect man :D I love him, because he is a man, not an angel nor a devil :)
Nowadays, when all the things broken between us, I just love him from my side. Happy when see him arround eventhough not too much communication. Its enough for me by see his happiness even maybe not with me, its enough by see he is fine by grace from Allah... I just wish all the best for him. May Allah ll granted all of his wishes asap...
This is just My little heart's talking that i have never know till when will stay to love him but i ll praise this love because i knew am happy with its being. A simple way how to stay with this love. although sometimes its bring tears when missing become too alot... but his being in my heart will always remind me that love is just love... that teach me how to laugh, smile, talk, move on life with simplicity....
Beautiful Morning, little rain outside, smell so good, and wind is blowing so slowly, feel cold but so coool :D fresh air...Oh, Thanks to Allah for this beauty morning :) hmmm, Pee Loon song still on playing when i wrote this posting ... suddenly remember with someone being :) someone who always i told in this blog since at first time i made this blog. Almost 2 years going on... sweet bitter things come and gone, not only with him but with many ones else too :)
Someone that i love since too ago even till now :) when nothing remain between me and him but i cant deny that i still love him. Maybe thats true, if girls will stop their love to someone that gone when they get new love again. Its similar with my true story. Too ago I kept Michael name with his love arround in my life, manythings happend, manyones come and gone, but Michael feel still so close with me eventhough i cant see him arround me till that someone come and touch my heart deeply :) " strange love " i can called my second love like that. I have never see him, touch him, talk with him face to face. But that love really stay in my heart. slowly-slowly, filled the blank place of my heart, make new palace with all of his amazing things :)
Im falling in love with him too ago. One of a friend told me , dont ever judge someone life from their cyber life, Altaf (one of my friend) ever told me too, Man only have good things, but another ones that judge us about our bad things...
Maybe like that too how i love him. Many ones ask me how can i love him this much ? hehehe, even i dont know the answer. I just love him. He has many amazing things that maybe he have never knew too. I learnt manythings from him. His hard life, His efforts how to survive, His grateful for everything he has, His Love for His Mom. I just love it. :) Maybe its listened too simply but life never be simple in his life. wont ever be ...but he always try to be happy with all the things he has. And he can do it..
He teach me something without being like as a teacher. He told me that i did a mistake, i did something wrong with some ways that i have never felt he is like as a perfect someone. He explain something or give me an example of another matter or problem withot being like as a lecturer. Sometimes i got him as a lover, a friend, a singer too :D or sometimes he is perfect as an actor. a good enemy for fighting. Hard as challenger in debate :D a good listener, a wise advisor, also excellent teller :D
From him i knew that love is so simple. he never promisse anything for our future love. Because love no need a promisse. Being together or not with him, thats not a matter for me, because i love him for him self not for his being near or far from me.
i have never think about his bad side that everyones told, not because of am blind with my love toward him but His Amazing things more than enough to impress me than those bad things. After all, am also not a perfect someone that want a perfect man :D I love him, because he is a man, not an angel nor a devil :)
Nowadays, when all the things broken between us, I just love him from my side. Happy when see him arround eventhough not too much communication. Its enough for me by see his happiness even maybe not with me, its enough by see he is fine by grace from Allah... I just wish all the best for him. May Allah ll granted all of his wishes asap...
This is just My little heart's talking that i have never know till when will stay to love him but i ll praise this love because i knew am happy with its being. A simple way how to stay with this love. although sometimes its bring tears when missing become too alot... but his being in my heart will always remind me that love is just love... that teach me how to laugh, smile, talk, move on life with simplicity....
Pee loon song still on playing.. when i finish to write on what i feel this morning... with those little rain and a cold breeze that being arround me... May Allah send all of happiness in your life, Darling... My warm love with you.. My wishes arround you... Keep fine and Good Luck... (L) ..
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