Wish You All The Best....

Let me Alive For Once More Again. hmmm, this poem and story, i mixed while thinking about Kal Ho Na Ho movie. A Sacrifice in love. Well, actually i didnt wanna talk about that, this posting i made for my next plan about mini novel i wanna write. I already choose a title, some roles who will play in this novel, a setting place, weather and so on. But unfortunately i lost my darkness sense. This sense often i use to explore my sadness. Maybe because nowaday i play too much with funny things :S so, when its needed i lost it and it make me stuck in one page in many hours :| Huufft. Like as this Let Me Alive For Once More again story, i wish it was so sad story, but seem it doesnt have a soul :( i lost the soul of my story. why this sense gone upon me? i really only can post something about reality well nowadays, but really hard to explore the darkness side of me :( though many sad stories i read too :S oh...Stranger... give me back my soul :( why u taken it too ??? :O :s A message to Aisha...

This discussion just happened some days ago with my room mate, not a discuss actually, we were doing argue each other and also debate. This debate happened while we wait for the final game of football where Indonesia face Malay. Suddenly, dont know why we talk about marriage and marriage life. This is about my thought and her thought, what we think about which one deserve or whice one no. Before it, i wanna tell here, a long time ago, when i was 22 years old, My Grand pa ever did an arrange marriage for me...hahaha, bit funny but it was happened too ago. twice. First time, GP told that someone already seen my pic, and feel interest. he is an employee where my GP worked that time. he came to my home, we met, talking just for 5 minutes and then i go in my home again. After that only Dad and my GP that talk with him. Then i go back to Jakarta, work again. no longer, 2 weeks after that, My mom called me, and said he refused u with bla bla bla reasons. but from my sister that heard convers...

JZ... this name i found while loading my old posting. Someone who means too much for me, yeah, even still till now, though i no longer showed how i care about her. Just everyday, if i can i see her at there where i am still connect with her though just like as a statue in her list... but still i couldn't just away. JZ... one name that i wont ever forget how much i try to do it. even, recently i do much to hold my self. i do many stupid, freak and crazy thing. Deleted her number from my contact phone but then busy to find them out in my diary book and save them again. Make my credit balance in all of my number empty just to hold my self, to send her a message, to call her and listen her voice, to mail her by mobile, even also hold my self to leave her a message offline... I dont know i just do it for my self, to hold the fallen of my heart again, i couldnt bear it ...really can't. But i wanna do a confession here, she wont ever know even maybe she will think that i am lost in my...

Hahahaha....what a funny favorite quotation :D I was found a friend request in facebook, and just look arround his profile, and i was laughing so loud after read his profile about his favorite quotation :D and he said : " When A Guy adds you on Facebook, It means He wants to be Your Friend, Not Your husband !!! , Thats why its called A FRIEND REQUEST NOT A PROPOSAL Don't be affraid to accept, He is not gonna eat You ... :D I was laugh too loud :P But then i just passed his friend request. hehehe, not for afraid reason actually for my rare time use my facebook account. But only 1 thing remain in my mind, is guy think like as that? when a girl doesnt accept his request???? hahaha, everyone has own reason for that actually, but maybe he used to think like that cause most of cyber girls he found like that,... hehehe.. who knows? only them who think like that know what they meant.

To The One.... Who showed me moon light, thank You... There is something i wanna tell you since too ago. Till now, i didnt tell you yet.. because... yeah, because there is many reasons. And The main reason is because i am afraid... If I tell it, what reaction will you give? will you accept my confession? Will You trust me? Will You still looking at me like this? Smile on me as today? Or you will keep distance from me? Leave me? But, i know i should tell it to you... I couldnt keep it forever. However your reaction after listen it, i just hope one thing from You... Don't go from me, Stay beside me... So, Can you stay to keep waiting for me? .... Ps. The sweetest from the sweet, when love still feel so smooth, everything looking so nice, whatever condition in it. longing will stay in the name of love though it just like as waiting without ending... Though It just love without getting, To One who showed me moonlight, Thank You... At one night, with Spring In London Novel, 2011 I wis...