For JZ.... P.S. I miss You.. :(

JZ... this name i found while loading my old posting. Someone who means too much for me, yeah, even still till now, though i no longer showed how i care about her. Just everyday, if i can i see her at there where i am still connect with her though just like as a statue in her list... but still i couldn't just away.

JZ... one name that i wont ever forget how much i try to do it. even, recently i do much to hold my self. i do many stupid, freak and crazy thing. Deleted her number from my contact phone but then busy to find them out in my diary book and save them again. Make my credit balance in all of my number empty just to hold my self, to send her a message, to call her and listen her voice, to mail her by mobile, even also hold my self to leave her a message offline...

I dont know i just do it for my self, to hold the fallen of my heart again, i couldnt bear it ...really can't. But i wanna do a confession here, she wont ever know even maybe she will think that i am lost in my own world...

I confess... I miss her crossed the limit.. whenever i saw her new tagline in facebook, my finger just wanna text her.. but again the tears fallen down, and i went to log out...

I confess... I can't deny... she was filling my heart with her love then how i can stay away without feel the hurt?

But even i couldn't say anything to her, no words, no text, no coming, no calling... but still i am here with one wish that my thought is wrong..

JZ.... am i still in your heart? have you ever miss me like what i felt to you... ? but still... i couldn't say anything... no words, no text, no appearing, nothing...

JZ... in one song... i wanna tell you...tu humsafar tu humkadam tu humnava mera... today, eventhough you have never knew... I miss you badly... could you feel me?... :(

Near to the time, before i go, 2011

Still many hope that like as invisible wishing

JZ, i just miss you so much....

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