Wish You All The Best....

Living Your Life to the fullest.... it's a reminder for me today or even for us. How are you Reader? #Wish this blog is still reading by anyone hehe. Have a life that's far away from my family, sometime could be so-so. Because when we laugh we cant see their face when we miss them we can't hug them. All we can do just call and video call. and it's tiring me up sometimes. As usual, I can go home on Eid holidays. Alhamdulillah this year, I got more than 2 weeks for holiday. and that's mean my family times quality times, release tiredness. This holiday, I didn't go home to my hometown, but I went to Blitar. This city is quite cool and I think I fall in love with it. Fresh air and a really peaceful place. The sound of Silence I love the most. Well, another activity just as usual. This holiday, I visited  Masjid Turen in Blitar and Blitar City's Park.  And here some pictures I took from those places. A corner in Masjid Turen,  Masjid Tu...

Evening was passing away... Night coming with bring cold atmosphere. Maghrib was passed away..Isya will be coming. I sit on the roof of my home... On the sky star has shine wit beautiful shine. Suddenly ...coming in my eyes sillhoutte of someone face. Someone whom I always tell about him in this blog. in here. Someone who i love, more and more. Oh..My God, what happend to me? sometime it become so bad feeling, Too hard, but i must try to passed through this condition. Rain coming again, not too hard... smell of it bring out every moment with him, bring out every memory about him. How much i love him now, i cant account it, Everytime with him for me become so precious time. Every day, every night and every time when he comes to me. Oh..heart, why do you so weak now? I cant control your heartbeat, I cant control your hurt. Why do you become like this. Night wind blowing bring cold air, I miss him at the moment. Suddenly, coming to my mind about his first love story, to whom he ...

Hi..Everyones... Assalam'alaikum.. And Have a happy weekend. Good nite from Jakarta, Today i am here again. Well, actually, my head turn around to be mad but its funny when after that many idea comes to update this bullshit blog, hehehe.  Well if i ask u, Whats ur favorite TV Channel Programs? HBO? CNN? Cartoon Network ? Discovery Channel? everyone should have their own favorite. But if u ask me then i ll answer for sure that ll be NatGeo Wild. Yeah, i like it the most than any other channel. Its showing us how great Allah who created this universe with every single things that never same one to another. The Nature, Animal, atmosphere even every little things that alive in this world.  Its strange nowadays, Human made too many  damage upon environment where they are alive. A wild hunting upon some wild animal or any sadism upon animal. Its too sad when nature give too much for their life but they are busy to destroy them. May Allah protect it all. So, here all th...

Sandal... all of you should know what that is. Almost 24/7 we use it arround home, while walking, while talking while eating, while do anything except while we do prayer in mosque or sleeping , hehehe. Today, i have a funny things about my own sandal :D *its off course funny for me but dont know for you*  ;) As usual day, my work times always crowded, rings of phones all the time, the customers, my worksheets, and should go up and down from 2nd floor to 3rd floor coz of the Internet Lan broken at office :s *It should because of my boss is forget to pay the bill again :| * Then After Asr prayer time, it was only 1 of my girl friend in 3rd floor, end of month, everyones busy outside office to manage some customers out side. So then i sit beside her  and seeing her that try to find out the sweet hijab for her marriage in next June. We got a little talk too about that plan also about her doubt to carry on that plan. Then i got a call from a customer and should go bac...

Night starts recovering this city. I sit near to the window, Wind that blowing slowly, stroking every piece of my hair...cold but fresh, touching my cheeks softly. No one at home this nite. Everyone is busy with their business. My mind goes to something that happened in once morning long time ago. That guy, that glance, that figure... dont know why his figure disturb my head too much. I dont know him but my eyes locked in him when my eyes glance got him accrossed the street. Tall, Quite handsome, simply and look alike another man. for first sight, Nothing special but even i couldnt turn off my staring on him... He run faster behind a bus where i was there. He choosed chair in the corner of bus, his brown skin looks shinny cause of sweat and sun's shining. And those eyes, i was seeing them when he tried to find out the chair. Those eyes are so dark and deep. I saw a magic in that morning.  That was my first meeting with him. Then day by day, i met him everyday, and tho...

Hari ini gue pengen nulis pakai bahasa Indonesia aja ah, capek ng-english mulu, hehehe, ga banyak yang ingin gue tulis. Mungkin cenderung freak, hehehe, sebenarnya ini adalah salah satu dari keanehan yang gue punya :P Keknya banyak bener keanehan yang gue punya, tapi boleh dong gue bangga dengan keanehan-keanehan gue :)) Temen-temen gue bilang gue agak miring, ya kasarannya gue and beberapa teman gue belum dapat sertipikat halal eh waras dari Badan POM resmi a.k.a Rumah sakit jiwa gitu, hahaha *bangga* Keanehan yang ingin gue ceritakan kali ini adalah tentang kebiasaan gue nyimpen sms, history chat, email, sent email. sms yang gue simpen ga melulu soal yang nice-nice, ngcool ngcool tapi sms yang juga maki-maki gue, ngatain gue segala ini itu gitu deh :D Temen gue pernah nanya kenapa gue kek gitu, hihihi, cuma hobby gue bilang. Tapi ternyata sekarang gue suka ketawa-ketawa sendiri kalau pas lagi baca-baca :D Sms atau email atau pesen pendek di facebook pun bisa bikin ngakak ten...

Let me Alive For Once More Again. hmmm, this poem and story, i mixed while thinking about Kal Ho Na Ho movie. A Sacrifice in love. Well, actually i didnt wanna talk about that, this posting i made for my next plan about mini novel i wanna write. I already choose a title, some roles who will play in this novel, a setting place, weather and so on. But unfortunately i lost my darkness sense. This sense often i use to explore my sadness. Maybe because nowaday i play too much with funny things :S so, when its needed i lost it and it make me stuck in one page in many hours :| Huufft. Like as this Let Me Alive For Once More again story, i wish it was so sad story, but seem it doesnt have a soul :( i lost the soul of my story. why this sense gone upon me? i really only can post something about reality well nowadays, but really hard to explore the darkness side of me :( though many sad stories i read too :S oh...Stranger... give me back my soul :( why u taken it too ??? :O :s A message to Aisha...

This moral story i got from my friend, she said she got some kind of this story from her friend's broadcast in Black Berry. Yesterday, i was talking with her about some matter and then she just shared this story, simple story but full of learning for them who wanna learn and learn about love, life, respect and build relationship... lets read and check it out... (It was in indonesian, i tried to translate it by english, hope not too different with the original story) "It was a family, Dad, Mom and 3 kids, just simply family. a story go on.. one of their kid telling this story... "20 years went away, but still i remind that nice memory... Once upon time, Mom that woke up since morning, working hardly whole day, arrange home, cleaning, without servant. It was 19.00 Pm, Mom prepare a simply dinner for us, Dad, me and my brother with omelet, fish fried, anchovy chili sauce, and rice. But because of my lil sister cry, mom is busy to take care of her and forgot her cooking till ...

Today, I just wanna say... I am very happy... yeah... too alot happy... why? getting something in my life? i think more than that.. Its about my interesting in writing. Yeah, I like to write since long time ago, or even since am in in my mom's pregnancy...hehehe, :P Talking about writing, its mean also about this blog, actually, most of commentator in this blog is my friends that know me, know who i am and what happen with me, yeah, so, when i wrote something that they felt passed the limit then i will got "Special comment" but its ok, no problem above all. Once day ago, I found a website that so interesting for me, In this website, I found many writers, and they write everything they wanna to write to tell to share at there since religion matter, poem, short story even some article about sex. Many moral article i found too at there. Its impressed me, then without thinking too much, i joined it. Yeah, I wanna try my capability in that website, its a world wide writer webs...

Like as the other days, days before yesterday... Not yet so manything i can share, also nothing i can write more...here.. sometime lost words, sometime just read my old posting. This nite, again, once more...its about nothing... just write what i wanna to write, just read what i wanna to read and listen what i wanna to listen. My eyes found some old conversation on yahoo, very nice talking...what a nite... some old songs since hindi to western songs, coffee, insomnia, this blog and old history chat... so many memorable moments that time. All goes start to play like as a movie in my mind.. Where are you now? where are they who said they love me? Time changes everything or maybe they are changing... and finally i feel ... Whats the meaning of Nothing lasts forever... Whats the meaning of All good relation cant stay good forever, I dont know what i do... it just a deep feeling i cant deny... like as dreaming without limit.. every year will remind me about everything... Sometime too afrai...

Due to my busy days, i left a conversation with someone at Whatsapp, just few minutes ago can take lil free breathable. Not yet so fine, but talking with someone make last problem get bit light point. Actually, we can do nothing for that matter so we decide to be nothing without do anything. Vacuum, waiting, but maybe its the best way when we couldnt find another way,... I hope, I wish. Manythings happen last 1 weeks, many good things, many bad news, some sad things, some happy news. Actually everything is colouring these last 1 week. I dont know what to say without Alhamdulillah that i am still fine, i am still here, to share with you some stupid things, some benefit things and some freak things about me. This nite, suddenly my friend was playing an indonesian song with title "hanya cinta yang bisa" if translate in english it could be "Only Love that can do" .... i stopped typing document that actually still some sheets remain.. i like most when the reff of this so...

Hufftsz "-__- ..... rasa apaan ini, rasanya pengen banget ku tendang, ku bakar, ku iris-iris sampai habis dan tidak pernah terlihat lagi. Ya, Allah, jangan buat aku lemah lagi. Sekian lama sudah kubiarkan diriku tenggelam dalam kehampaan yang ku buat sendiri, aku lelah dan aku tak kuat lagi menahannya. Bantulah aku melepaskan ini, Ya Rabb, karena hanya dengan kuasamu semua ini akan jadi tak berarti apa-apa. Ku rasa kini aku mulai terbiasa, memang benar kata seseorang, yang selalu mengajariku tentang makna cinta bahwa cinta itu give without expect, ask without demand, advise without order, Kini aku berani dan yakin dengan segala hal, aku belajar melepaskan dia dari hatiku, mungkin tidak mudah, mungkin banyak rasa sakit, tapi aku yakin aku bisa, seperti saat dulu aku mulai mencintainya, dari sedikit hingga tak lagi terbendung, kini aku akan berusaha, melepaskan dia dari hatiku dari yang tak terbendung menjadi sedikit dan kemudian sirna, bahkan tanpa meninggalkan rasa sakit. Mungkin ...

Talking about movies, one questions will appear. What kind of movies you like most. hmmm, manyones maybe will choose western or hollywood movies but since too ago when i was at high school, i choose Bollywood movies. i can say i am maniac enough about hindi movies, hehehe, any genre since drama, horror till action i tasted them all. And its still till today, but unfortunately since some years before i couldnt find any heart touching hindi movies again. Seem all going to be showing part of body movies... so sad.. but what to say... maybe thats for profit oriented. hhhh :( By the way, anyway bus way :D here, i wanna posted some very very fabulous hindi movies according me... my most favorite and every movies maybe already watched more than 3 times :P TAARE ZAMEEN PAR, one of hindi movies if i can say is "My Most Wanted" its telling about a child with dyslexia desease. This movie teach us to praise every children whatever their being, actually no one ask to be different but by l...

Jakarta... When I mentioned this word at 15 years or more ago, I will think what a wonderful big city. Yeah, actually after more than 12 years i live here, Jakarta really grow up than that time i arrived. All aspect in everything, bu t the ironic thing its seem like as Rhoma Irama's song, a little lyric of the song if i translated maybe like this " The whole country property, Only for its people prosperity, b ut my heart always wondered, Why life is not evenly The rich get richer, The poor get poorer, The rich get richer, The poor get poorer State does not belong to class And also does not belong to individu als And therefore do not arbitrarily Enrich yourself blindly" That song can showing us, what Jakarta look alike, i would like to say "Jakarta behind The Scene" Sometimes, its too funny, when one in another place, government still busy with build the city by manything and in another place face of poverty still arrround the world . In o...

Mom.... when mention this name will always make my tears wanna burst out :) I am already more than 30 years old, but i am still account what have i did for her? It will be going to zero, empty zone, i am not a good daughter enough. Sometimes, When Yani telling about her mom, how she sent and pick her mom going and back to or from work place, i only have a bitter smile. Or when Naura telling about her mom, suddenly my tears will come down :) how great they are who can love their mom that much. I start live separately from my family maybe almost 13 years ago, even i got surprise by this sometimes, only can go home once in year, and calling my family when my worksheets being far from me. But My mom will always like that, she will call when i start to be busy and forget all the things arround me, its strange me sometimes, i have much time to be online on messenger, hahaha hihihi and talk with them who i didnt knew real but i often forget just to say "I LOVE YOU, Mom :)" Mom..That...

Sun : Hi Moon Moon : Hi Sun :) Sun : How are you Moon? Moon : Alhamdulillah, Im fine Sun. Wat about you Sun? Sun : Am super B, Moon. Moon : Wah, nice to know that. Sun : Yeah, btw, why are you so faded now Moon ? Moon : hehehe, maybe because no you arround me, Sun...haha :P Sun : ooppss, whats that mean? u still stuck with that feeling Moon? Moon : hehehe, what to say Sun :D but it become ussual for me nowadays ;) Sun : You should do ur best and keep fine with that Moon :) Moon : Yes, I ll Sun. Dont worry about that :) Btw, You are looking so handsome today Sun? get something new? Sun : hahaha, No, moon, because am really truly mostly handsome actually :D Moon : Weks, over self confidence Sun : haha, who told? that u start to tell about that na? actually am busy with spring nowadays Moon, also half summer that coming sometimes, really make me stuck. Moon : I see, but you are looking so brighten with ur s...